I love you Alesha and I dont tell you enough so here is a song dedicated to you my wonderful wife.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Thursday, March 5, 2009
The Healing Begins
Well it has been a week since we learned the bad news about our baby. Like we said in the previous post even through all the tragic events of this week we feel like God has been very gracious to us.
We told Bailey the news a couple of days ago. It was one of the things that I dreaded the most. She handled it like a champ. She is old enough and smart enough to understand that the baby is gone but still young enough to not be very effected by it. She asked several times why the baby got sick but then left the room and returned with with an arm full of babies. She handed me her babies and said "Here mommy, you can share my babies". She is so sweet.
We had a good day today. The three of us went to Chuck E. Cheese for lunch. It is Bailey's absolute favorite place to eat. It has her two favorite things; pizza and games. We came home and Bailey and I laid down and took a nap together. When we woke up we all went outside and spent a couple of hours playing tee ball, riding in the barbie jeep, and other various outside toys. Then we walked across a couple of empty lots and picked lellow(yellow) flowers. Austin and I had to walk all the way back to the house without her. She had to walk back by herself really slowly carrying her bouquet of flowers (like she was in a wedding or something). Austin got his phone and took some pictures of her. That started it. She then went to several other spots asking daddy to take more pictures. We finished our day with American Idol or Hollywood as Bailey calls it. What more could you ask for?
We told Bailey the news a couple of days ago. It was one of the things that I dreaded the most. She handled it like a champ. She is old enough and smart enough to understand that the baby is gone but still young enough to not be very effected by it. She asked several times why the baby got sick but then left the room and returned with with an arm full of babies. She handed me her babies and said "Here mommy, you can share my babies". She is so sweet.
We had a good day today. The three of us went to Chuck E. Cheese for lunch. It is Bailey's absolute favorite place to eat. It has her two favorite things; pizza and games. We came home and Bailey and I laid down and took a nap together. When we woke up we all went outside and spent a couple of hours playing tee ball, riding in the barbie jeep, and other various outside toys. Then we walked across a couple of empty lots and picked lellow(yellow) flowers. Austin and I had to walk all the way back to the house without her. She had to walk back by herself really slowly carrying her bouquet of flowers (like she was in a wedding or something). Austin got his phone and took some pictures of her. That started it. She then went to several other spots asking daddy to take more pictures. We finished our day with American Idol or Hollywood as Bailey calls it. What more could you ask for?
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Tragic News
I had an appointment Thursday for a regular check up at my obgyn. I was eleven weeks along and my doctor decided to do another ultrasound because my first was so early. Austin, Bailey and I all went to the appointment because we thought that it might be neat for Bailey to be able to see the baby on the ultrasound. When the doctor came in with the results from the ultrasound he gave us the bad news that something was not right with our baby. He didn't not give us any details on what it was, but gave us some ideas. The way he acted and the things he said let us know that it was something pretty serious. He told us he was sending us to a specialist to get a better idea of what was wrong.
Our appointment was the following day so we had 24 hours to let the information sink in and prepare for the fact that something was seriously wrong. From the small amount of information that we had I had a good idea of what we were facing. Austin and I spent every moment together sharing our fears and hopes and what would be the best and worst case scenarios. We both agreed that we hoped that it was nothing or something very easily dealt with or that the baby wasn't going to make it. This may sound a little harsh but the idea of having a severely handicap child was heartbreaking to us. We knew it would be hard for us and for Bailey, not even counting the quality of life the baby would have.
We went to our appointment with the specialist and the high quality ultrasound they had made it quiet obvious what was wrong. The doctor came in and gave us the news that our baby had a severe development abnormality and that there was zero percent chance of survival. The previous hours had prepared us for these results and we were almost relieved that the answer was so black and white. There would be no time of anguish wondering what would happen and how it would affect our child.
We are both very sad and mourn the loss of our baby but even in these times God is so good to us. We found out at a point much earlier than many women do and were gradually eased into the news instead of an all at once shock. Austin has been so wonderful. He has cried with me, listened to me, and shared his thoughts and emotions. He has been by my side for every moment and I could not be dealing with this as well without him. It has really helped to know his thoughts and emotions and be able to share this experience with him.
We are so blessed to have Bailey and have really been soaking that in these last few days. She is and has always been so healthy. She is very smart and just the most precious child I know, obviously. We have not told Bailey yet and that will be the most difficult part of all of this for me. Today while we were eating lunch she looked at me and said, "Mommy, Is the baby in your belly asleep now? I bet it will come out soon." Austin and I looked at each other then I had to turn away because I had big tears in my eyes. It just broke my heart. She was looking so forward to being a big sister.
We pray that we will be able to heal quickly both physically and emotionally. We look forward to trying for another child and look forward to the blessings for our family in the future. For all of you who had already heard the news thank you for all your prayers. For those of you who are just hearing this we would appreciate your prayers through this time in our lives.
For those that have been through tough times like this our heart is with you. We do not feel in any way that God does things like this to people but that we live in a broken world. This is simply the result of the brokenness of our creation due to the fall of mankind. Followers of Christ are not exempt from tragedy but we have Jesus to go through it with us. Where God does not cause these things he does want to take the weak and broken things in this world and teach us more about himself so we can be more like him. Jesus we love you and will praise you in this storm.
Austin & Alesha
Our appointment was the following day so we had 24 hours to let the information sink in and prepare for the fact that something was seriously wrong. From the small amount of information that we had I had a good idea of what we were facing. Austin and I spent every moment together sharing our fears and hopes and what would be the best and worst case scenarios. We both agreed that we hoped that it was nothing or something very easily dealt with or that the baby wasn't going to make it. This may sound a little harsh but the idea of having a severely handicap child was heartbreaking to us. We knew it would be hard for us and for Bailey, not even counting the quality of life the baby would have.
We went to our appointment with the specialist and the high quality ultrasound they had made it quiet obvious what was wrong. The doctor came in and gave us the news that our baby had a severe development abnormality and that there was zero percent chance of survival. The previous hours had prepared us for these results and we were almost relieved that the answer was so black and white. There would be no time of anguish wondering what would happen and how it would affect our child.
We are both very sad and mourn the loss of our baby but even in these times God is so good to us. We found out at a point much earlier than many women do and were gradually eased into the news instead of an all at once shock. Austin has been so wonderful. He has cried with me, listened to me, and shared his thoughts and emotions. He has been by my side for every moment and I could not be dealing with this as well without him. It has really helped to know his thoughts and emotions and be able to share this experience with him.
We are so blessed to have Bailey and have really been soaking that in these last few days. She is and has always been so healthy. She is very smart and just the most precious child I know, obviously. We have not told Bailey yet and that will be the most difficult part of all of this for me. Today while we were eating lunch she looked at me and said, "Mommy, Is the baby in your belly asleep now? I bet it will come out soon." Austin and I looked at each other then I had to turn away because I had big tears in my eyes. It just broke my heart. She was looking so forward to being a big sister.
We pray that we will be able to heal quickly both physically and emotionally. We look forward to trying for another child and look forward to the blessings for our family in the future. For all of you who had already heard the news thank you for all your prayers. For those of you who are just hearing this we would appreciate your prayers through this time in our lives.
For those that have been through tough times like this our heart is with you. We do not feel in any way that God does things like this to people but that we live in a broken world. This is simply the result of the brokenness of our creation due to the fall of mankind. Followers of Christ are not exempt from tragedy but we have Jesus to go through it with us. Where God does not cause these things he does want to take the weak and broken things in this world and teach us more about himself so we can be more like him. Jesus we love you and will praise you in this storm.
Austin & Alesha
Friday, February 6, 2009
Bad Dream and Broken Heart
My poor baby girl had her first nightmare a few nights ago. She came in my room crying and saying "Mommy you need to come to my room there is something scary". I could not get her to tell me what her dream was about. I stayed with her for a few minutes. I sat there rubbing her face telling her that everything was okay. I watched her little eyes darting around the room to make sure there were no monsters. She would sniffle from time to time. It broke my heart. I cannot stand to think about her laying there scared. I have always been a big chicken myself so I can remember laying in bed at night scared of everything.
The next night she was so resistant to bed time. The later it got the more she kept saying, "I am never going to bed again". When I told her it was time to go brush teeth and go to bed she started crying and saying "What if I have another bad dream?". Talk about killing me. I was ready to just put her in our bed and be done with it but I knew that wasn't the answer. We got in the bed to read her bedtime story and started talking about all the things that make her happy. We talked about her friends, family, cake, her new bed, and several other things that came to her mind. By the time I left she was smiling and seemed to be okay. I prayed several times throughout the night that she would have a wonderful night. She slept all night and woke up in a wonderful mood. Yeah!! She said "I didn't even have any bad dreams". Thank you God.
The next night she was so resistant to bed time. The later it got the more she kept saying, "I am never going to bed again". When I told her it was time to go brush teeth and go to bed she started crying and saying "What if I have another bad dream?". Talk about killing me. I was ready to just put her in our bed and be done with it but I knew that wasn't the answer. We got in the bed to read her bedtime story and started talking about all the things that make her happy. We talked about her friends, family, cake, her new bed, and several other things that came to her mind. By the time I left she was smiling and seemed to be okay. I prayed several times throughout the night that she would have a wonderful night. She slept all night and woke up in a wonderful mood. Yeah!! She said "I didn't even have any bad dreams". Thank you God.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Bailey's Room
Bailey's room has kind of been my pet project since we moved in the new house. We painted before we moved in and have been gradually adding things. We got her a new bedroom suite a few weeks ago. She is sleeping well in her new "big bed". It gives her more room to move around than the toddler bed did.
Monday, February 2, 2009
Another Taylor Baby on the Way
Austin and I found out a few weeks ago that we are expecting another baby. I don't know why but I have been very nervous this time. We didn't want to announce it until we had our first doctor visit. We went to the doctor Thursday and had an ultrasound. Everything looked great and we are expecting the new addition in September.
Bailey is so excited about being a big sister. She couldn't stop smiling and laughing when Austin and I gave her the big news. When I was trying to explain to her what was happening I used our friend Kacey who has a 10 month old baby boy as an example. I said "Do you remember when Mrs. Kacey's belly got big and then Levi came out? That is what is going to happen to Mommy". Bailey quickly said "Their baby was a boy baby and my baby is going to be a girl baby." We'll see if she is right. She has been telling people for a while now that she has a baby in Mommy's belly.
I have been explaining to Bailey over the last few months how she used to live in Mommy's belly until she grew big enough to come out. We looked at pictures of my pregnant belly and her as a new born. She seems to understand fairly well. I guess about as well as a three year old can. She knows we'll go to the hospital and they will get the baby out then we can bring it home. The other day she lifted my shirt and said "Mommy, your belly isn't big yet, did the baby come out already?" I think she will have a hard time waiting. We will keep you all updated.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
We are still alive!!
Wow. These last few months have been so busy. To all of our loyal readers I'm so sorry. Most of you know that we bought a new home and moved in October. October, November, and December are also our busiest months with the fundraising business. We do about two thirds of our business for the entire year in these three months. We were blessed to be able to spend two weeks with our families for Thanksgiving and another two weeks for Christmas. On top of all that because of complications getting our phone and Internet transferred we didn't have a home phone or Internet at the new house until the day before we left for Christmas break. Austin did his work from his office in the old house, but when I was there I always had a two year old no toys wanting to go back to her new house so I spent as little time there as possible. Hopefully we are back up and running.
A few things that have happened since we were last on line are:
*Bailey's school program (hopefully post short video soon)
*Thanksgiving & Christmas fun
*My brother-in-law Tim almost won state in the 2AA football division
*Tim now moving up to 6AA head coach of the Searcy Lions - Yeah Tim!!
*Tim will also be one of the coaches in the Arkansas high school all star game.
*Celebrated Tim's 40th birthday
*Austin & Adam built an awesome clubhouse for grandkids at Mom & Dads (David working on it while were gone - will post pictures soon)
*Helped my brother Adam and his wife Amber move to Benton
*Painted and moved into our house (Bailey's room is too cute - will post pics)
*Went & watched Razorbacks play Old Miss, Florida, and LSU
*Went trick-or-treating with Ernie, Claudia & Ethan
*Celebrated New Years with lots of cousins, uncles, and aunts
*Went to Bailey's last class at the Little Gym (will post video)
*Celebrated Baileys 3rd birthday (already posted - yeah)
I know I am leaving some things out. It's hard to think back. We got a busy few months ahead, but having Internet at home helps. I can usually squeeze in a few minutes after Bailey goes to bed. I'll work on catching up. Until then..........
A few things that have happened since we were last on line are:
*Bailey's school program (hopefully post short video soon)
*Thanksgiving & Christmas fun
*My brother-in-law Tim almost won state in the 2AA football division
*Tim now moving up to 6AA head coach of the Searcy Lions - Yeah Tim!!
*Tim will also be one of the coaches in the Arkansas high school all star game.
*Celebrated Tim's 40th birthday
*Austin & Adam built an awesome clubhouse for grandkids at Mom & Dads (David working on it while were gone - will post pictures soon)
*Helped my brother Adam and his wife Amber move to Benton
*Painted and moved into our house (Bailey's room is too cute - will post pics)
*Went & watched Razorbacks play Old Miss, Florida, and LSU
*Went trick-or-treating with Ernie, Claudia & Ethan
*Celebrated New Years with lots of cousins, uncles, and aunts
*Went to Bailey's last class at the Little Gym (will post video)
*Celebrated Baileys 3rd birthday (already posted - yeah)
I know I am leaving some things out. It's hard to think back. We got a busy few months ahead, but having Internet at home helps. I can usually squeeze in a few minutes after Bailey goes to bed. I'll work on catching up. Until then..........
Happy 3rd Birthday Bailey!
Tuesday my baby turns three years old! We had the big party today. Bailey is into all things princess so we had a princess birthday bash. She was so excited the whole day. Austin and Papaw walked in with the two dozen balloons I had ordered and Bailey said "let the party begin". She couldn't wait to sink her teeth into the cake so we got that started pretty quickly. After a couple pieces of cake and lots of icing she went off playing an forgot all about presents. Later I reminded her of the presents and she told Mr. John Wayne "Come on, we gonna have another party"! She got lots of girlie gifts. The child has two rooms full of toys between Christmas and birthday. Several friends came to celebrate with us. Nana & Papaw, and Aunt Amanda, Taylor & Alex even drove in also. Thank you all for making Bailey's third birthday a special one. We love you guys!
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